Imagine for a minute that you are renting an apartment with someone. You come home to find the door handle key sticks. It takes you ten minutes to get in. There is also a deadbolt with a different key, and that works fine. The roommate returns. The following scenario and dialogue ensues: “Can we use the deadbolt only until we can get the door handle lock repaired?” The roommate replies; “No, I’m not comfortable with that.” Anger begins welling up within you in the form of righteous indignation. A justified response, yet still it is a conditioned programmed scripted reaction to a situation, derived from old mind patterns, stored in memory. Ah but this time you catch it, (the anger welling up inside) and say to the programmed egoic mind, NO!!! You see it in just that moment for what it is, you remain very present and calm. You see your ego and its attempt to take control of you. Then there is epiphany: you look at the roommate and say to yourself; “She doesn’t see it, see that she is being completely controlled by a programmed egoic mind, following a life script others wrote, be they parents, peer groups, academia, and or others.” Her mind is using her not the other way around, and she doesn’t see it! Obviously, it is unfair and she should see that it is, yet she does not. This is the unbelievable power of the egoic mind. Then, you conclude that she must be forgiven for she knows not what she does. How can someone be blamed when they are unconscious? Their script controls them and denial ensues. In one form of denial or another, she blames it on you, or cannot control it, or some other excuse. She, like everyone in the state of unconsciousness, is living in a dream world. In this state, is the person really there at all? This is a simple case study that happened to the author and was a great leap forward in awakening to see enlightenment. Watch programmed responses in yourself and others, therein lies freedom from indoctrinated old mind patterns, a mind using you. Yet to do this one must remain very very calm, not raise the voice, or they will become emotionally invested in the situation, programming, and thought then will carry them away, at which point one must wait for the waters to calm once again. Only then can they see in retrospect what happened. Be subtle, still, and move slowly in action and thought. The more the situation and or people involved provoke you, or the more your own conditioning pushes your buttons, the more calm and peaceful you must be. Remember, it is your own ego and knows everything about you, what triggers to pull in order to maintain control of you. Again, most people think they use their mind when plainly their egoic mind uses them. Calmly watch yourself and life situations. Reclaim energy from the egoic mind and it will no longer control you. It will then serve its host as was always intended. Yet at some point ego took total control, hence the mind identified state. Most of all keep going no matter what happens. Ego cannot ultimately tell you who you are unless you give in to it. It is the idea of foreverness, this is forever. Ego’s tool of control is the past and future concerns. It, via thought, uses time to create problems. Problems it created, then with a different set of thoughts seek to solve the problems it created. Thought trying to understand itself, an exercise in futility.
